Lost Star

Last updated on 19/12/2023

My old lovely star is now hidden by the sky
Only shadows remains, shadows from the clouds
Without your light, nothing can dissipate this crowd..
All my memories has now lost every of his past ties..

Maybe all of this was written in my destiny
I’ll just remain what I am, far from the sea
That you offered me with your eyes, blue like the ocean
Now I’m only far from my past emotions..

You can’t lie anymore, as you didn’t fight no more..
Why did you wanted a ring, to finally run away with your wings..
We didn’t succeed, we only killed our love’s seed..
It seems the devil won the war and did its best score..

Did you really wanted to heal my wounds?
To bring me far away from my despair..?
Like an angel that kept me out of the hell’s ground..
Should I just disappear once again, alone without any care..?

You disappeared from where we lived..
Am I so scary because of my bipolarity?!
I just wanted to be loved, yet I’m only unloved..
Finally unhappy, even if my only wish was to be happy..

Nobody can understand what I feel..
Maybe it’s because of my childhood’s pain..
But did these years were so unreal..?
I don’t know, but if it wasn’t, then there were lived in vain..

My hallucinations are the only things that’ll never change
The dark seems to be always permanent how strange..
When will it be the end? I just need to go elsewhere to mend..
All your sadness that you gave me, almost giving me some madness..

I hope I can fix my darkest thoughts invading my mind..
I feel so dumb to cry without any hope and only fears..
Am I just weak to love, that it makes me so blind..
The only thing I’ll be showing are my soul’s tears..

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© Anthony Grenier – 27 Novembre 2018